This may hurt a little bit

How often did we hear the medical teams say that to Drew: “this may hurt a little bit…”

“I have a little tape to pull off…”
“Just a little stick…”
“You may feel a little pressure…”
“You won’t feel the drill going in much at all…”

That’s how this week is going…every few minutes, it hurts a little bit.

When we try to erase some pictures on the camera – Drew or Westbrook?
When you listen to old voicemails and one is from Drew.
When you call for Ben but say Drew almost every time.
When every drawer you open has something that makes you remember a moment in the hospital.
When you wash his clothes, pick up his belongings from school, stop by the bank, call the insurers, open the mail.
When you wake up every night at 3:30 a.m., the same time they called you to come back to the hospital.
When you remember another funny story you wish you had told when you had an audience, and you wonder where to write it down.
When you find the list of stories you wrote down yesterday.
When you think of someone you missed telling, and you call them and they don’t answer. Or they do.
When you say one of a thousand phrases that have a slightly different meaning now – four kids; family vacation; Drew’s birthday; got cancer; Drew’s room; my brother; my boys.

This may hurt a little bit.